Hi there,
Getting ready for bed and decided to go ahead and check out the email. Thank you so much for forgiving me my years of foolishness Tina, my selfishness as well as many other faults have truly come to light in what God has caused me to think of as most important right now. Nothing else I thought was important 30 days ago was even mentionable. There are so many things in my life that will be changing as I was being distracted and allowed it. No More! I understand what is going on and I am surrending my will to His again. I am not able to at this time to seperate the ability to work and help others and live and help others so I am letting go of my shop and placing it up for sale. The shop has hurt me greatly and has caused me to care too much about the cares of the world. "Be ye not conformed to the ways of this world but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind." Wow have I been learning this more and more. Funny thing is I have been telling others this quite often.
I am excited to see the changes that God is planning to make for me as I know they will be great! I plan to mend fences, build relationships, love unconditionally, forgive and beg forgiveness daily. I love you Tina and thank you so much for being there for me right now. You will never know how much it means to me. Rhonda
Rhonda:
If I called as often as I want to, you would not be able to get things done around there. Today I wanted to call around 1:00 but kept myself from it. I do want to see you. I am praying for you and wanting so much for God to intervene and heal you and continue to heal all of us through this situation with you.
I talked with Veni and I understand how the comfort they are trying to offer you can be confusing. It's your choice where you put your hope and in whom and what methods.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your path.
This is what I am crying out for you. Lord, lead her.
Are you still getting email?
Tina
Monday, June 16, 2008
Saturday, June 14, 2008
My Sister Rhonda
Rhonda is the fourth child and fourth girl in my original family. She is 4 1/2 years younger than me, she is 46.
I left home when she was 12.
What I remember the most about our childhood is that she and I plus our brother Dan, were a three-some against the other 3 siblings who were first borns of the three couples. She was always cooperative and supported my leadership of our gang.
She opted to work rather than continue in highschool at an engraving company. She eventually started her own engraving business and until just last month has had it in operation on a website and shop outlet.
She has been married for over 20 years and has three children, twin boys age 20 and a daughter age 11. They live in Missouri.
After I left the house, I really didn't get to know her very well. Our history together has been marked by antagonism and misunderstanding. Our talks have been short and our times of seeing each other has been few.
In the last few weeks, things have changed. She called out of concern for our dad who was very ill and refusing to go to a doctor. Not giving in to her idea of getting involved in the situation, she accused me of being out of touch with our family and proceeded to let me know she would no longer contact me with family problems. A week later when my dad checked into the hospital on his own, she checked into the hospital 2 days later with a severe headache and lack of muscle control. There she was diagnosed with lung and brain cancer.
Since then she is grasping for life and answers. She has asked me for forgiveness for being angry and jealous with me. She is freaked out about what is happening and what she is going to do.
Unlike others who are in the same situation, I feel like Rhonda and I have the same skin, the same blood. She is like my daughter Halley, to me, so I see her as my daughter. My connection with her is very close. We are talking now, as if we have been caring on as intimate friends all along. I am very concerned for her and am crying out to God for her life and his glory.
She is on my heart and mind right now....
I left home when she was 12.
What I remember the most about our childhood is that she and I plus our brother Dan, were a three-some against the other 3 siblings who were first borns of the three couples. She was always cooperative and supported my leadership of our gang.
She opted to work rather than continue in highschool at an engraving company. She eventually started her own engraving business and until just last month has had it in operation on a website and shop outlet.
She has been married for over 20 years and has three children, twin boys age 20 and a daughter age 11. They live in Missouri.
After I left the house, I really didn't get to know her very well. Our history together has been marked by antagonism and misunderstanding. Our talks have been short and our times of seeing each other has been few.
In the last few weeks, things have changed. She called out of concern for our dad who was very ill and refusing to go to a doctor. Not giving in to her idea of getting involved in the situation, she accused me of being out of touch with our family and proceeded to let me know she would no longer contact me with family problems. A week later when my dad checked into the hospital on his own, she checked into the hospital 2 days later with a severe headache and lack of muscle control. There she was diagnosed with lung and brain cancer.
Since then she is grasping for life and answers. She has asked me for forgiveness for being angry and jealous with me. She is freaked out about what is happening and what she is going to do.
Unlike others who are in the same situation, I feel like Rhonda and I have the same skin, the same blood. She is like my daughter Halley, to me, so I see her as my daughter. My connection with her is very close. We are talking now, as if we have been caring on as intimate friends all along. I am very concerned for her and am crying out to God for her life and his glory.
She is on my heart and mind right now....
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